You will experience some of the following....
- shorter but more frequent bouts of apathy.
- social frustration.
- astounding stories.
- distraction.
- motivation.
- illness... unbelievable illness.
School, I've been missing classes here and there. Health problems taking me out of stuff already. 3 weeks into year 6 and I've had one voice lesson. I have a freaking recital next semester. This wagon has GOT TO GET MOVING. Supposed to be performing on Tuesday. Must hurry and re-memorize.
Aquacise has been AWESOME. I'm sore every day. I'm working out. I feel good. I just need to practice paying better attention to what I need to get done each day. Distraction takes hold like a very protective dog and I feel stuck in this constant tug-o-war.
Choir has been outstanding. The retreat went off well. Nothing went wrong that could have been prevented. It's such a great group. I feel like we've purged a lot of the bad attitude and bitter students.
Complaints have run rampant this semester. Teachers, classes, social, romantic... and I really do believe in assessment. But in so many cases, I hear repetitive complaints. This class is a waste of time. I don't even know what I'm doing. This teacher is ridiculous. Indignation reigns supreme, particularly in classes like form an analysis. I've been thinking about this for the past two days. Gebitching. There has been SO MUCH gebitching from everyone. If even half the effort or passion was applied in the effort to understand or seek answers (even if need be, OUTSIDE OF CLASS) we would all be experts on the topic.
Real question: What is the use of complaining if we're not doing anything to organize and take steps to actually change something?! Or are we so limited by our inability to see outside ourselves that we cannot understand where someone is coming from long enough to think about why they are engaging in the behavior that frustrates us?
Anyway... before I get all worked up and pissed off... Our last concert choir rehearsal was amazing. We're working on Morten Lauridsen's "Sure On This Shining Night."
Sure on this shining night
Of starmade shadows round,
Kindness must watch for me
This side the ground.
The late year lies down the north
All is healed, all is health.
High summer holds the earth.
Hearts all whole
Sure on this shining night I weep for wonder wand'ring far alone
Of shadows on the stars.
The rehearsal was delightfully vulnerable. Everyone was engaged. Everyone was contributing... it felt so good to be a part of the whole... people coming together and working together for an artistic goal. It was familial.
Nanette
